Thursday, September 18, 2008

An update

I guess I should have done this a week or so ago, but you know how it is being busy with life outside of the internet, right?
Anyhow, I had been emailing with my specialist's nurses about different concerns because of pains in my lower abdomen. They told the Dr. and he decided he needed to see me, and while we're at it, why not get Jer tested. So Jer's now been tested and I've been seen and this is the situation. Jer's pretty much fine, and the Dr. figures that since we're still not pregnant, even after charting my temperature, doing ovulation predictor tests, and keeping track of all our 'activities' and following the directions that he and the nurses have been giving us, that the next step is insemination. Jer and I aren't really wanting to jump to that just yet, especially since it's $300 a try and the Dr. said there's (only) a 6-10% success rate.
Now through all of this temping, etc, I've gotten a little stressed and frustrated, and it's pretty much all that's ever on my mind. So I asked the Dr. if it would be ok if we quit temping and tracking and testing and just live our lives and see what happens. He said we can try that, so it's the plan for now. I'm currently trying to figure out how to change my mindset to enjoying just being me for awhile (not being a hormone-crazy monster from pills or pregnancy) and to being more selfish. Yes, selfish-I really am not sure how to be selfish, but I figure maybe it'll help take my mind off of wanting a baby to take care of. Jer's very impressed with my plan, so we'll see how it goes. I just need to de-stress, or like my friend, Tori, said, 'distractions'.
Oh yeah, and the Dr. gave me a note to give to Curves to discontinue working out there because of my lower abdominal pain-apparently all the exercise I should be doing is walking. I'm pretty frustrated about it because I feel like such a slacker now.
Well, that's it for now, we'll see how this all works out.

12 comments:

Adiel said...

Good luck with the new plan! :)

Alisha said...

I'll Distract you anytime!! I think I feel a girls night out coming on!!

Joanna said...

I am sorry darling, you do need to be selfish. Talk to me and I will distract you from your mood. I wish we didn't live so dang far away that way we could hang out so much more. Remember we need to do our girls day or night.

Lindsay Christensen said...

I feel for you! We totally understand how frusrating it is to want to get pregnant SO bad and nothing happens. But, in our case... every time we stopped "trying" and decided to wait to have kids we got pregnant right away. Good luck!

Logan and Emily said...

Yikes what a process. All I have to say is how impressed I am with you. You are such an example. I hope you're able to find some fun things to keep you busy. Try a cake class at JoAnn's!

Melissa said...

It's so hard "not" to think about something that you want so bad that it does totally stress you out, so good plan! Like I told you, that's how it worked for us with both, the month we thought no way, SURPRISE! So have fun, enjoy fulfilling your wants and needs...be selfish! And hey, maybe pretend all of the things you are supossed to do, you're not supossed to do- so you're totally being naughty (lol) and who knows what could happen! =0) Best of luck though, we're thinking of you!

HollyOak said...

Well, I don't know if this will help you, but I have a good friend who tried for years to get pregnant, and they tried EVERYthing. All the same stuff, plus some... And, they got sick of all of it, like you are and decided to just live a normal life. She even started training for a marathon (which I know you can't do) and that is when she finally got pregnant... So, I guess what I'm saying is--good luck with your decision. I know it has worked for others, so there's always hope, right? :)

Loughmillers said...

I hope this works out for you and everything goes well. good luck

Ashlee said...

Good thinking on the new plan, sounds like it might work. You guys deserve it more than anyone. Oh and enjoy the spoiling, we all need to be a little selfish sometimes!

Julie said...

Hey Julianna,
I found your blog on Ashlee's. I'm so sorry to hear/read about your troubles. It would be so so hard wanting a baby and not being able to have one. I'm impressed with your plan. It would be hard to make that choice. Good luck with everything. It's fun to see your blog. It looks great.

Julie

Erin said...

You can always call or come over and we can do some crazy craft or just watch a movie...Good luck with everything!

Ryan & Ashley said...

We definitely need to get together soon. I wish that there was something to say to make you feel better about everything that you are going through, but there is nothing I can think of that I have been told, or would want to be told to make you feel any better or different. We can talk any time though :)